You and I can’t enter into God’s process of confession and brokenness until we know and experience how faithful and merciful God’s love is toward us.
God says, “I created you, redeemed you and called you by name. You are mine.” (Isaiah 43) David understood this message: “Generous in love — God, give grace! Huge in mercy — wipe out my bad record.” (Psalm 51) Be still and meditate on this truth.
Now ask the Holy Spirit to show you the truth of your sins. When this knowledge hits you hard, and it will, pray like David did after his affair with Bathsheba: “You’re the One I’ve violated, God, and you’ve seen it all to the full extent of my evil. I’ve been out of step with you for a long time. What you’re after is truth from the inside out. Enter me, then; conceive a new, true life.” (Psalm 51) Be still and meditate on this truth.
David prayed, “Going through the motions doesn’t please you, God, a flawless performance is nothing to you. I learned God-worship when my pride was shattered.” (Psalm 51:16) You and I, too, can pray, “God, shatter that awful, I-can-handle-my-life-myself-pride.”
In her book, “Praying God’s Word,” Beth Moore writes:
Pride says, “I am a cheater.
I cheat you of your God-given destiny… because you demand your own way.
I cheat you of contentment… because you ‘deserve better than this.’
I cheat you of knowledge… because you already know it all.
I cheat you of healing because you are too full of pride to forgive.
I cheat you of holiness… because you refuse to admit you’re wrong.
I cheat you of vision… because you’d rather look in the mirror than out a window.” Be still and meditate on this truth.
So what do we do? We find the answer with David again: “The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart, O God, you will not despise.” (Psalm 51) When we humble ourselves in repentance before the Lord, He lifts us up. Meditate on that picture – God’s hand lifting you up – to love you – to give you His purpose – to walk beside you all the way.
Eventually, in time, we might pray: Lord, may we bring an end to ourselves – our work, our plans and our self-reliance, so You can truly begin. As we fast and pray and confess our desperate need for the power of Your Spirit and the resources of heaven, may You be magnified and may others be drawn to You. (from Radical by David Platt)